Thursday 4 June 2009

The first attempt

I am not a doctor,counselar,or any thing that has certificates with it,but what i am is a different way of looking and trying to understand life. I do not have a book that i highlight certain lines and chapters in,not that i take anything away from the people in those professions,I think they do a great job,no body has the answers to life and why sometimes it goes wrong or if you feel lost and lonely.All i know is that i have personal experience of Broken homes,being homeless,attempting suicide,drug addiction,alcholic parents,and all this i had faced by the supposed sweet 16,Sweet it was not from around 8yrs to 16yrs was the most horrific,lonely,lost years i have and will ever have experienced.If i was to write it all in one blog that would be the end of my site and probaly the end of me,my past is exactly that my past and i am not ready to work through all of it just yet,im not strong enough mentaly,although i do try very hard to make myself believe i am,I know deep down im not.So my aim and intention is to work through it here in these personal blogs and hope for myself some personal closure and for anybody reading some sense of understanding,and knowing that you are not alone,that bad things happen,but you can keep going,with hope,So much of my life will relate to everybody in some way or another and maybe like the old saying goes..'just one simple line can flood a whole life with meaning'and if i can give anyone a meaning in life then i would have achieved something wonderful.....keep a eye on this site for it will drain you emotionaly yet at the same time inspire you......